God breaks the heart again & again & again until it stays open.

—Hazrat Inayat Khan

When you find your true home you realise you've lived most of your life in exile.

The struggle with internal work is to stop struggling.

silence & insight

The greatest menace to our capacity for contemplation is the incessant fabrication of tawdry empty stimuli which kill the receptivity of the soul.

—Josef Pieper

The imagination is a wellspring of images that bubble up from the unconscious when the surface language-drenched mind stops.

Yielding brings energy in from outside
& attack sends energy out from inside

both
quiet
&
intense

Softness dissolves boundaries

In cogitation the thought or attention flits aimlessly about the subject. In meditation it circles round it, that is, it views it systematically, from all sides, gaining perspective. In contemplation it radiates from a centre, that is, as light from the sun it reaches out in an infinite number of ways to things that are related to or dependent on it.

—Ezra Pound, 1909, recalling in his own words ideas from Richard of St. Victor

When I really see the Other
then I see the world
through their
eyes

Yin & Yang are one vital force – the primordial aura.

—Wang Yangming

Forgiveness frees me from the past whilst grace allows me into the future.

The present moment is where forgiveness & grace become one.

The Master is free of four things: He doesn’t have preconceived ideas or foregone conclusions, he isn’t overly certain of himself, he isn’t unyielding, and he isn’t self-centered.

—Kǒngzǐ

Abnegating to the point of erasure

If you're not uncomfortable on a daily basis, you're not making much progress.

—Robin Sharma

If you're in the habit of pleasing yourself, you'll learn nothing.

The good student understands that the teaching's disclosure depends far more on their preparation & receptivity than the teacher's willingness to teach.

Cheng Man-ch'ing's Form is beautiful but if you model your own on that you'll never learn spirit.

Nobility: the ability to selflessly regard the bigger picture.

Everyone wants to be special, and some are, but never the way they think they are.

—John R Kells

Alexander Technique has a practice called Inhibition – pausing before you act – having the presence of mind to catch yourself just before an automatic action and pausing to see if it really is necessary, and if it is, can it be done better – more relaxed, more efficient, more balanced. An example would be reaching for a cigarette. Is it really necessary to hasten your death? Or taking the next breath: catch yourself, pause and then take in that breath deliberately – relaxed, gentle, full – breathing in not only air but also light, warmth and God's love.

gnōthi seauton   γνῶθι σεαυτόν   know thyself

Beware a teacher that tells you what you want to hear

I'm not spiritual, I'm religious – totally bound to the path. I don't chose to practise, I practise because spirit won't allow me not to practise. The only person who understood this was my teacher.

I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately.

—Henry David Thoreau

The
next
stage
is
always
the
most
difficult

Live
subversively
:
dedicated
to
spirit

Apparently the English word religion has three possible etymological roots, all Latin:

1. Relegere "to go through again" – repetition – practice;
2. Religare "to bind fast" – duty-bound to practise;
3. Religiens "careful" (opposite of negligens).

For the artist the work is always infinite, unfinished.

—Maurice Blanchot

A poetry
uncluttered by
meaning

Stilling the mind we call liberating mind from the mind. Before we can tackle this we must liberate the mind from ignorance & stupidity, which means getting an education: acquiring knowledge, but more importantly, the ability to think clearly, rationally & critically. Having acquired these skills it takes an unusually deep soul to consider turning this tool against itself rather than merely using it to live a more comfortable, pleasurable & desirable life.

一日不做一日不食

One day not work, one day not eat

—Baizhang Huaihai

A touch
that opens up
the abyss

Mind & Nature: A Necessary Unity

Be still and know that I am God

—Psalm 46

It is not that I am empty but rather that Emptiness is I.

—Masao Abe

We live a life estranged from our true nature.

It's the root that pulls your bum in.

We spend a life avoiding the issue, especially nowadays when everything is chosen or planned or designed. It's rare to find someone who chooses the difficult path. The good student.

a sacred unity

Softness is the ability to melt

The fundamental concept in Taiji is Full & Empty (Yin & Yang). What makes this difficult to think is that both Full & Empty are endlessly changing into each other. The only way to manage such change is to stop the mind and surrender to it.

Soul is to be found in the vicinity of taboo.

—Thomas Moore

The name of the game (in a nutshell) is transformation – change. Everyone claims to want it but no one really does. If a person really wanted to change then they would. Yet everything remains the same, locked in place.

Meditation: contemplating the mysteries

And what could be more mysterious than life?

Humility, that low, sweet root,
From which all heavenly virtues shoot.

—Thomas Moore

sacred reciprocity

Weight training will change your energy in a way that Taiji could never do. With Taiji it's too easy to fake it whereas with weights it's impossible.

A relaxation
that opens up
the abyss

Meditation: sitting quietly and allowing the heart to fill with the smile of the Buddha

If the notion of God turns you off then instead think Destiny: a Truth both calling from afar and aching to burst forth from your deepest recesses.

The truth is precisely that which we are running from.

wúxin   無心   no-mind

wúwǒ   無我   no-self

If, despite all your work, there's little progress, then maybe you haven't taken the teaching to heart.

The conventional world puts a veil over your eyes.

—Sergio Larrain

Meditation: sitting quietly and waking to the bigger picture.

wúcháng   無常   impermanence

pistēs   πίστης   faith
elpis   ἐλπίς   hope
agāpe   ἀγάπη   charity

Meditation: from fullness to emptiness.

xin  心  heart-mind

It takes two to know one.

—Gregory Bateson

Śūnyatā   Kenosis   Fanā’
(Emptiness)

There's no point helping others if they
then refuse to help themselves

There's no point listening if you then refuse to hear.

There's no point looking if you then refuse to see.

If you have a dominant ego then you are an idolater.

The big breakthrough comes when you're finally mature enough to admit your faults, own your faults, and do something about your faults.

It took me 25 years of Taiji to get to this point.

We have forgotten to observe. Instead of observing, we do things according to patterns.

—Andrei Tarkovsky

Inside each of us there's a little E.T. aching to go home.

Relax into destiny
into who/what/where
you really are

Keeping depression at bay by rushing around like a headless chicken is what therapists call active depression.

I am trying to find a truth beyond the perils of our extinction, faced with the unconditional love and trust in the eyes of my daughters.

—Joep Beving

toxic positivity

A useful concept being bandied around by therapists

Attention is thinking suspended.

—Eric Weiner

LIANG TUNG-TSAI'S TEN GUIDING PRINCIPLES

From my more than thirty years experience of learning and practicing T’ai Chi, I formulated ten guiding principles so I will know how to deal with people and myself:

1. Nobody can be perfect. Take what is good and discard what is bad.
2. If I believe entirely in books, better not read books. If I rely entirely on teachers, better not have teachers.
3. To remove a mountain is easy, but to change a man’s temperament is more difficult.
4. If there is anything wrong with me, I don’t blame others, I only blame myself.
5. If I want to live longer I must learn T’ai Chi and accomplish it both physically and mentally. To accomplish it mentally is much more difficult.
6. I must learn how to yield, to be tactful, not to be aggressive; to lose (small loss, small gain, great loss, great gain), not to take advantage of others; to give (the more one gives the more one will have).
7. Life begins at seventy. Everything is beautiful! Health is a matter of the utmost importance and all the rest is secondary. Now I must find out how to enjoy excellent health in my whole life and discover the way to immortality.
8. Make one thousand friends, but don’t make one enemy.
9. One must practice what he preaches. Otherwise it is empty talk or a bounced check.
10. To conceal the faults of others and praise their good points is the best policy.

As you work, the mood grows on you.

—Francis Bacon

If you find yourself in a fight then your Taiji has failed you.

All my life
all I've ever

really wanted is
to work in

such a way
I get drawn

ever closer
to God.

The best hours for meditation are between 3 & 5am when the world is sound asleep & dreaming. The hours either side are pretty good too.

The first thing the teacher does is introduce a new vocabulary.

Coming back to a feeling of destiny.

We all begin as mediocre students. Those that get into daily practice become good students, and those that refuse to practise become poor students. Those with good intentions remain mediocre, but as time goes on the chance they will start to practise becomes slimmer & slimmer.

The inevitability
of the return.

Like a trampoline.
Or a bungee.

The reality
we inhabit.

There is really only one choice: do the work or refuse the work.

頂精領起來

The energy at your headtop rises up

腰勁㩑住

The waist gathers the energy together

Only when there's a real risk of failure will success be transformative.

Glimmerings are what the soul’s composed of.

—Seamus Heaney

Put your back into it

Pull your weight

Now that we have lost both Nature & God and the Ego is fully ensconced, life for most is a long battle with depression.

In Taiji communication has little to do with the exchange of information. It's more like joining forces with the Other to generate good energy. Communion would be a better word.

A cat is approaching with its tail erect and you bend down to stroke it which it clearly enjoys. A simple exchange that leaves you both feeing better.

Take care this time of year – after the solstice – when it's a struggle to get going. The year needs to dig deep to muster the energy to rise.

Central Equilibrium : In Suspension

The Suspension of Disbelief

Make the Other an offer they can't refuse. Become so appealing, alluring, welcoming, inviting, enticing, even seductive, that communication is assured.

The risk of a wrong decision is preferable to the terror of indecision.

—The Rambam

Where opinions abound

you're far from the truth

Develop a clear, intimate awareness for sacrum as centre of the structural body. Both keystone of the lower body and cornerstone of the upper body. Then the mind will naturally settle in the dantian.

Beginning is easy
Continuing is hard

A student that doesn't practice (study) is not really a student, they're a tourist.

Vows are a safeguard of continence.

Technology, especially digital technology (our current obsession), robs us of soul.

Practice: repeating the same, drills deeper

When I picture a perfect reader, I always picture a monster of courage and curiosity, also something supple, cunning, cautious, a born adventurer and discoverer.

—Friedrich Nietzsche, Why I Write Such Good Books, Section 3

So deep you disappear

Spirit is the energy of danger. It appears when we're in danger, and hopefully saves our lives when in danger. Spirit is always with the underdog – with the molecular rather than the molar, with the weak rather than the strong. Hence the beatitudes.

Practice: repeating the same generates difference

Life is a long slow process of learning to pray.

Happiness is not getting what you desire but freedom from desire.

Learning to be open in the open.
This is prayer.

At times the truth shines so brilliantly that we perceive it as clear as day. But our nature and habit then draw a veil over our perception, and we return to a darkness almost as dense as before. We are like those who, though beholding frequent flashes of lightning, still find themselves in the thickest darkness of the night.

—Maimonides

Social media is the externalization of ego.

Life evolves
(Make sure you do)

perseverence    ὑπομονή    hupomoné

Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

—James 1:4

Live in obscurity

When I told my teacher about Nitsan's obsession with the Root, ever critical he said: You must get your inspiration from the stars, not the Earth.   True enough, but unless you have a damn good root (and everything that goes with it: selflessness, ruthlessness, probity, clarity) you'll never reach the stars.

Anything worth knowing is impossible to tell.
We must find out for ourselves.

rewild
remystify
resacralize
remythologize