In order to bring inspiration to people I must not be concerned with applause by the audience. I must stand erect, tall, and straight. I must be of a clear head and pure heart (no stimulants).

—Sonny Rollins, The Notebooks

we enter time’s fullness not by clinging to it but by cutting ourselves loose from it

Rid your life of journalese. The antidote is poetry.

I have always felt that I am an empiricist, that is, a pluralist. But what does this equivalence between empiricism and pluralism mean? It derives from the two characteristics by which Whitehead defined empiricism: the abstract does not explain, but must itself be explained; and the aim is not to rediscover the eternal or the universal, but to find the conditions under which something new is produced (creativeness).

—Gilles Deleuze in Gilles Deleuze & Claire Parnet: Dialogues II, Columbia University Press, 2007

Gravity & levity : stillness & spirit

Practice: time spent engaging the principles of Taiji

prais-
ing

this
mo-
ment

with
all

of
his
heart

gave
him
heart


—Robert Lax

time speeds up in the presence of levity
(time flies when you're having fun)

It's not what you do that counts but the passion – the enthusiasm – with which you do it.

time slows down in the presence of gravity
(a watched kettle never boils)

linked through social media yet disconnected from real people

OBSERVE SHABBAT

rest & worship

(gravity & levity)

Kindness creates connexion.

Soul is not essence, self or identity, but the sum total of all our connexions.

Practice is an act of kindness. Kind to your soul and kind to your world.

Progress in Taiji (and there must be progress otherwise you're not travelling a path, you're just standing still) is a slow (think decades) process of getting closer to the ground. Sinking, sinking, sinking, which requires stronger legs, more flexible hips, more open groin. When I encounter old students who have kept up their daily practice but without a teacher to spur them on (fire their spirit), this is what they lack: their Taiji is all upper body with no root.

shining eyes (levity) & a quiet mind (gravity)

quiet
is always
quiet
rejoined


(Thomas A Clark)

All spiritual work, internal work, real work, boils down to one thing: trying to quieten the mind.

When you meditate and watch the noisy mind, what's it actually talking about? It's usually grumbling: going through a litany of complaints and resentments in order to reinforce its sense of self-righteousness. This is what Nietzsche called slave mentality. The slave silently grumbles at the master – he's full of resentments. The master, in contrast, has a quiet mind because he doesn't need to grumble – everything is under his control.

Hegel had a master/slave story. The master decides he shouldn't have to do menial jobs anymore so he buys himself a slave to do them for him. Because the master is not working he is getting weaker as time goes by, and because the slave is working, he's getting stronger as time goes by. So there comes a point when the slave overthrows the master. Now Nietzsche's big insight is: okay this happens, the slave may overthrow the master, but he will still have slave mentality, he will still have the noisy mind.

And this is what we are basically. We are masters of our lives in the sense that we have enough income not to have to worry about starving and other unpleasant things – we appear happy & content – but we still have the noisy mind. And you can see that to break this is different than just having more money to make life more comfortable. That sort of excess doesn't help at all.

The difference really between the slave mind and the master mind is that the slave is looking at the world and desiring. It's the whole market economy – capitalism is the slave mind in action. The master wants for nothing, so he can be himself, looking out and commanding his world. The slave is always looking at a world that is beyond it, moaning to itself because it can't have it. The slave thrives on envy. That's what we need to do something about.

Become a peacemaker. Always see both sides.

輕 則 靈
靈 則 動
動 則 變

Lightness leads to agility
Agility leads to movement
Movement leads to change

It's been obvious for a long time now that we can't go on like this…

God breathes through us so completely...so gently we hardly feel it...yet, it is our everything.

—John Coltrane

動 中 求 靜
靜 中 求 動

Seek stillness in movement
Seek movement in stillness

There are many paths. What they all have in common is practice.

To some degree we are all crippled by fear, conditioning and culture. Endeavour to step aside from each. This is the work.

Nature is solar powered. Burning fossil fuel is our big mistake. Reintroducing all that carbon, which had been conveniently locked underground, back into the atmosphere was bound to cause global warming. We only have ourselves to blame.

move with restful cadence

Imagine how you'd feel if you ventured into this church. The mind would likely be stunned into reverential silence, and the heart lifted to the vaults above. Awestruck.

When we meditate with erect posture then we become our own church or temple.

On a wing and a prayer

ATTENTION

Sacrum and manubrium align allowing sacrum to sink and manubrium to rise

Seek knowledge — increase daily
Seek Dao — decrease daily

Meditation: the practice of emptying

Go out & play!

Without forgiveness there is no healing and the past keeps repeating itself.

Missing the odd meal is good for you.

The two aspects of yielding: extending a presence behind the other, and opening a space within for the other to come into.

Meditatation: savour time rather than pass the time.

slowly but surely

I've had over ten thousand students in my time and is all I ever wanted is for them to get their bums in.

—John Robert Kells

Virginia Woolf expressed the purpose of her journal on 20 April 1919: I should like it to resemble some deep old desk, or capacious hold-all, in which one flings a mass of odds and ends without looking them through.

A good therapist listens so well the patient reveals things forgotten or repressed. Active listening: not just hearing what's offered but encouraging divulgence.

VIGIL  the act of keeping awake at times when sleep is customary; a period of wakefulness; an event or a period of time when a person or group stays in a place and quietly waits, prays, etc, especially at night

Spirit is all around all the time so if we are unaware of it it is because we are clotted with self.

xin zhai  心齋  mind fasting

This age of shameless conformity.

volatile & mercurial

Don't let trauma define you. Neither your own nor your clan's. And Ego is a trauma – it's how you conceive and therefore construct yourself when spirit / connexion has withered.

THE CALL

I was suddenly
required to be
like my soul

Throughout Chinese history, there have always been people who preferred to spend their lives in the mountains, getting by on less, sleeping under thatch, wearing old clothes, working the higher slopes, not talking much, writing even less—maybe a few poems, a recipe or two. Out of touch with the times but not with the seasons, they cultivated roots of the spirit, trading flatland dust for mountain mist. Distant and insignificant, they were the most respected men and women in the world’s oldest society.

—Bill Porter (Red Pine), Road to Heaven, Counterpoint Press, 1993

Spirit as first principle – arkhe ἀρχή – apeiron ἄπειρον – chaos χάος – substrate – dark energy.

Wisdom is like water. It resides in the lower meditation field, the belly. The head is for thinking; the heart for willing and desiring. The belly is the place for wisdom and contemplation. We ‘return’ to Dao’s gestating presence from this inner womb of intuitive awareness.

—Master Zhuang (quoted in Michael Saso: The Teachings of Daoist Master Zhuang, Oracle Bones Press, 2012)

ancient & living

Ultimately, awareness / consciousness / spirit are the same.

deus sive natura

Every artwork worth its salt is created with spirit and can only be understood with spirit.

Fascism is a refusal to admit critique.

P a t h f i n d e r

Pain is a challenge to be in the world differently.

To free the spirit you must first unburden the heart-mind.

In a nutshell, the work allows you to transition from control – the way many of us seek to organize our lives, to trust – the foundation for creating a fluid relationship with time.

—Paul Loomans, I've Got Time, Watkins Publishing, 2024

Listening, as ethics and ecology

The slowness of a hunting animal on the prowl.

G r o u n d b r e a k i n g

Trying to find a better way of being in the world. More awake/aware; more graceful/gracious; more responsive/responsible.

This life of glimmers

The teacher's words are meant to inspire practice, not replace it.

There is a saying in the martial arts: Timing is everything. And timing (the ability to thrive in real time) is always a matter for spirit. Spirit doesn't just find the right moment, spirit makes the moment.

We all have a world view and we believe anything that reinforces that view and we deny or disregard anything that contradicts it. We create the world before we encounter it.

The only real religion is animism. All those that have come since (except maybe Daoism, which isn't really a religion) are far more to do with social control than truth.

Confucianist in public but Daoist in private.

Brief habits — I love brief habits and consider them an inestimable means for getting to know many things and states, down to the bottom of their sweetness and bitternesses. My nature is designed entirely for brief habits, even in the needs of my physical health and altogether as far as I can see at all— from the lowest to the highest. I always believe that here is something that will give me lasting satisfaction—brief habits, too, have this faith of passion, this faith in eternity—and that I am to be envied for having found and recognized it; and now it nourishes me at noon and in the evening and spreads a deep contentment all around itself and deep into me so that I desire nothing else, without having any need for comparisons, contempt, or hatred. But one day its time is up; the good thing parts from me, not as something that has come to nauseate me but peacefully and sated with me as I am with it—as if we had reason to be grateful to each other as we shook hands to say farewell. Even then something new is waiting at the door, along with my faith—this indestructible fool and sage!—that this new discovery will be just right, and that this will be the last time. That is what happens to me with dishes, ideas, human beings, cities, poems, music, doctrines, ways of arranging the day, and life styles.

Enduring habits I hate. I feel as if a tyrant had come near me and as if the air I breathe had thickened when events take such a turn that it appears that they will inevitably give rise to enduring habits; for example, owing to an official position, constant association with the same people, a permanent domicile, or unique good health. Yes, at the very bottom of my soul I feel grateful to all my misery and bouts of sickness and everything about me that is imperfect, because this sort of thing leaves me with a hundred backdoors through which I can escape from enduring habits. Most intolerable, to be sure, and the terrible par excellence would be for me a life entirely devoid of habits, a life that would demand perpetual improvisation. That would be my exile and my Siberia.

—Friedrich Nietzsche, The Gay Science, 295

Spirit is a scalpel that nicks open a vein, allowing energy to flow.

Civilization is the enemy of spirit and so the enemy of soul and so the enemy of man.

Performing Taiji, you are not an object moving, you are the movement, the energy.

We are habits, nothing but habits—the habit of saying ‘I’

—Gilles Deleuze, Empiricism & Subjectivity, 1953

GOOD HABIT : very much a provisional institution and ultimately an oxymoron

All the problems facing the world today, from global warming to mass extinction to the new rise of tyrants, can be traced back to one cause: overpopulation.

We willingly sell our souls for toys & protection.

Spinal hygiene

Given we are good students (practise daily), our only choice is whether to fail miserably or joyfully.

(Beckett said it better. So did Castaneda.)

Most of us live on autopilot.

Practise daily, without endgaining.
There is no end.

Only when lost for words do we find out who we really are.

Man, you might say, is nature dreaming...

—Robinson Jeffers

This era of cultural decline and ecological degradation.

Ego is a parasite living in the psyche and feeding on thoughts, words, worry. Through meditation we slowly starve it. But it never dies – just leaves you enough psychic energy (awareness) to perceive energy, spirit and (eventually) Dao.

Thought does not exist where love is. 

—Jiddu Krishnamurti

Get involved but don't interfere

The difference between the poor student and the good student is courage.

Listen with rapt attention

Back in the early eighties when I started Taiji, the BTCCA (British T'ai Chi Ch'uan Association) held a seven hour Intensive on the first Saturday of every month. Toward the end of each of these sessions, Grand Master John Robert Kells, who always led the proceedings, gave an inspiring talk (effectively a dharma talk). These would always start the same way: "The most important word in Taiji is RESPECT," and then would go off on a wonderfully inventive tangent. I always tell my students that the most important word in Taiji is LISTENING. Respect & listening are really the same thing.

Choiceless awareness

Find out for yourself.
This is why we practise.

Everyday consume something fermented: kefir, sauerkraut, kombucha, yogurt, miso…

MEDITATION

Imagine you're at home, seated comfortably in your favourite armchair, watching television. The lights are low and the programme is entertaining. Suddenly, for whatever reason, the TV dies and you're left in the dark. You pull yourself forward to the edge of the seat, readying to arise and check the electricity. As you sit, perched on the edge, your eyes start to grow accustomed to the dark and you notice the gentle luminescence of the room. It's as though the surrounding objects slowly start to come alive, revealing a very different reality: more subtle, more mysterious, more natural.

Empty your mind
Empty your life

The more mind empties, the more spacious it becomes.

Only tolerate company you admire: those that elevate, edify and leave you cleaner.

We are so much more than what we think we are.

Spirit fires up – ignites – and you become a firebrand lighting up the way.

Listening for possibilities we haven't anticipated.

Spirit is the agent of becoming. Without spirit the past repeats itself and the real future never properly opens up.

Dantian: a place that, precisely because it is so empty and inhospitable, offers the possibility of dwelling.

Spirit: a willingness to dance / play

Rather than verb tenses inscribing our metaphysics of linear time into consciousness, classical Chinese verbs are unconjugated, simply registering emergence, occurrence appearing of itself in a kind of boundless present. And classical Chinese has minimal grammar, so pictographic ideograms seem to be each emerging from a generative emptiness.

—David Hinton

Love is a burgeoning heart.

Poetry is language invested with spirit

Thinking (mind) is a morass of prejudice.

An important element of a short poem is the white space that surrounds/contains it.

Spirit is the unbearable lightness of being.

Science's obsession with the material & measurable.

Monotheism is simply the deification of male Ego.

Acting creatively rather than reacting habitually.

The abuser always forgets but, for the life of them, the abused cannot.

Advice:

• Follow your nose
• Do as you're told

Until we move towards a broader view of self which incorporates spirit – an Atmavidya – psychology will remain simply the study of our psychological surfaces.

—Elliot Cohen

Aware: Middle English waren "to be mindful, be on guard," going back to Old English warian "to be wary, guard, protect," going back to Germanic warōjan- (whence Old Saxon waron "to attend to, protect," Old High German biwarōn, Old Norse vara "to warn," varask "to be on one's guard")

Awake: Old English wæccan to watch, Latin vegēre to enliven; Norwegian dialect vok, Old Norse vǫk hole in ice

I distinguish three fundamental sets of Taiji principles:

• Principles of Station: sink & relax; upright spine;
• Principles of Motion: single-weightedness; turning the waist;
• Principle of Continuity: keeping the mind on the job, also called Mind Continuous or the Principle of Flow.

Mind Continuous is the space in which the first two sets of principles (the physical principles) operate. It allows them to work together and regulate each other, each creating, preserving, and negating the others.

Attack from the heart
Yield into the belly

The Spirit of Hope
Is this not a tautology?

Practice expresses faith, generates love.

As dantian contracts into the here & now, mind expands into the ever-increasing void. Condensation & evaporation.

Soft mind connects
Hard mind controls

The main function of the rational mind is not to think but to blot out energy.

Birth was the death of him.      (Beckett)

Taiji mind: awake, attentive, alert. Neither desire nor need to know. Knowledge unnecessary clutter.

Keep the mind on the job. If I manage that, and keep repeating the exercise, I will be taken, via central equilibrium, into heightened awareness, into spirit. If my mind wanders at all, I won't; I will be simply wasting time.

As dantian contracts into the here & now – the local – the mind expands into the ever-increasing void. Condensation & evaporation.

RESPECT: the proverbial second glance

LISTENING: our first act of compassion

The problem with human beings is that very early on we learnt how to cheat.

Is all we're trying to do in this game is wake up. So simple, so natural, so easy. So why don't we? Because we don't really want to.

Humanity's deeper needs: meaning, community, transcendence.

Space peppered with spirit.

Truth is infinite and of the Void.
Knowledge is finite and of the World.

a fart fraught with meaning      (Beckett)

When the teacher gives an instruction you cannot understand, a part of you hasn't woken up yet.

Paradox is the rule, not the exception.

Mind in dantian. When it wanders off just bring it back.

Ever feel suspicious there's a bigger picture we're not quite getting?

From a certain point on, there is no more turning back. This point must be reached.

—Franz Kafka

Von einem gewissen Punkt an gibt es keine Rückkehr mehr. Dieser Punkt ist zu erreichen.

Humble literally means of the ground, earth, soil, dirt, dust

Bene qui latuit bene vixit

Peeling away the scabs of conditioning, worry & ambition, to reveal the truth – a gentle naked spark of awareness.

Ward off: turn aside something threatening; deflect; ward off a blow, trying to ward off a cold      (Merriam-Webster)

I am an archaeologist of morning

What spoils people is thinking (they have a choice)

We don't experience reality, we experience a world.
A world is what we turn reality into with our minds.

a dazed inarticulacy

The ground is our felt-sense of support and stability that lies beneath the body, and therefore our deepest ground is underground. There are different levels to this sense of being grounded. On one level—the most obvious one—we feel rooted in and connected to the earth. Our bodies are earth-bodies, and we are able to feel this earthy connection. Another level, less frequented, is archetypal.

—John Prendergast

A shift from economy to ecology.
From economics to ecologics.

Burn your bridges otherwise as soon as the going gets tough you'll run home to mummy.

Before we work on 

ARTIFICIAL

INTELLIGENCE

why don't we do

something about

NATURAL

STUPIDITY?

(T-shirt slogan in TLV)

from a transcendent superstructure to an immanent infrastructure

An artist is someone who, for the life of them, cannot conform.

Measure progress in decades.

gratefully & gracefully

That she had so completely recovered her sanity was a source of sadness to her. One should never be cured of one's passion.

—Marguerite Duras

Don't waste time with people you don't admire. Life's too short.

The closer we get to the truth, the more difficult it is to face. Only purity can behold truth. Patiently await a moment of grace.

Last week my daughter had an English exam at school. She told me that many of the students had their phones on their laps, typing questions into an AI app, and then copying out the answers. I asked if there was no invigilator present. "Yes there was, but he was on his phone the whole time and didn't notice what people were doing."

Listen quietly in primed readiness. For as long as it takes. This is intelligence.

Internal work is all about changing the mind.

Meditation: Sein und Zeit

Invite spirit in and you'll go crazy. Keep it out and you'll get depressed. It's your choice. In fact it's the only choice.

An artist, in the act of creation, becomes a conduit for spirit. 

The same for us as we perform the Taiji Form.

I call it heightened awareness – the intense listening that draws spirit into the mix.

behold beingness, that most sacred of treasures

—Don Domanski

GRAVITY
I sink into Earth
Earth rises into me
LEVITY
I rise to Heaven
Heaven sinks into me
GRAVITY
I sink into Earth
Earth rises into me

MEDITATION 

Heedfulness

Vigilance

Diligence

Watchfulness

Awareness

Earnestness

LISTENING

The Internal is a milieu where money is irrelevant.
The only way to get ahead is through practice.

And wonder is a twine of wands lodged
to spine of nothing I know at least to hold.

—Clark Coolidge

We need energy to feel energy
we need spirit to engage spirit.

Deep is the new four-letter word.

I remember once discussing with teacher whether either of us would have started the work if we had known at the beginning how difficult it was going to be. We both said No, but then realised that it wasn't a matter of choice; it was destiny. We didn't choose the work, the work chose us.

Life's too short to dabble.

One continues on a long walk not by effort of will but through fidelity.

—Thomas A Clark

Tell it like it is. No one really listens anyway.

Deep down we are all infantile.

If you want to get half an hour of good quality practice in then you need at least an hour of free time.

It's been obvious for a long time that we can't go on like this…

Meditation: waiting for the murk to clear and the spirit to sparkle

If you truly listen, you will be amazed. You will realise that the space you inhabit is transcendental (of spirit) and that your mind, being (of) that space, is also transcendental.

We only become free when we let go. This is why relaxation is crucial.

The rational mind is not a creative tool (that would be the Imagination). Is all it can do is give a trivial reason for something that really has no reason. Like saying that the reason behind your existence is that your mother and father once copulated.

the disturbing
reality of

rampant
consumerism

political
corruption

moral
degradation

eating
away

at the
nation’s soul

FOUR CONDITIONS OF HAPPINESS

Life in the open air
Love for another being
Freedom from ambition
Creation

—Albert Camus

Before we can begin to even contemplate living at peace with each other we must first stop waging war on the natural world.

Alive in such a way that the world is always new.

Reduce the External as much as possible so that the Internal can expand into the vacated space. This is the Void. Empty of things but full of spirit. What Deleuze aptly called the Transcendental Field.

Give & take 

Give attention 

Take care

Letting go of everything: fear, anxiety, control, knowledge, expertise, opinions, values, judgements …

The modern mind grips things so tightly, with its anxious need to control, it reduces & strangles them. The enlightened mind is the opposite. Ever letting go, it shrinks to nothing, allowing the world to expand into fullness.

What fuels the noisy mind is the critical eye

Daily practice sheds anxiety, generates good energy, and gathers peace of mind. We are then better prepared to engage the world and give to the world.

soft eyes
invite

the world
rather

than push
it away

Imagine walking down the street minding your own business. You notice someone ahead looking lost. As you approach they politely ask directions. You graciously oblige. They thank you, exchange a few pleasantries, and head off with a new confidence. You continue on your way with a fuller heart. This is what life is all about: creating good feeling.

Anxiety, which is really just a need to know, inhibits the outflowing of your energy.

An empty depth

The Void

If you wish to experience levity, simply sit and watch the sunrise. You will realise that the sun rises not only over the hills, it also rises up through you.

The deeper the Form takes you, the longer you'll need to recover. 

Think of it as slow digestion or rumination.

Whenever I type    meditation    my spell-checker corrects to   medication

a modern episteme marked by disenchantment

soft  =  of energy

Reject the spiritual paucity of modern life.

An inner life rich enough to resist the need to conform.

Good people are givers.
Bad people are takers.

Avoid the latter.

Love does not make you weak because it is the source of all strength, but it makes you see the nothingness of the illusory strength on which you depended before you knew it.

—Léon Bloy

each foot a
stethoscope

auscultating

subterrene
grumbling

If the work you have decided to devote your life to is not making you a better person then you have either made the wrong choice or are working in the wrong way.

Fetishes of the Floating World

Scientists have found that sitting in meditation slows heart and breathing far more effectively than sleeping or relaxing on the sofa.

Once again I should like to start with the wound.

—Joseph Beuys

Would you rather be a sheep – a conforming subject – or a lone wolf?

The only time I feel lonely is when I'm in the wrong company.

Words cannot speak the truth. The best they can do is point beyond themselves towards the truth.

SINK & RELAX

First principle of Taiji. Both imply letting go (desist resisting). Let what needs to happen happen.

Physically: let go tension and gravity will pull the body down to ground.

Mentally: let go self (importance) and the mind will expand (recede) into the back/ground – the ground of being – the ocean of consciousness.

Spiritually: let sparks of vitality emerge from the ocean and animate everything (you do).

Develop a weather eye: an eye quick to observe coming changes (in the weather). A constant and shrewd watchfulness and alertness.

The incessant chatter in the head serves one purpose: to reinforce the sense of self, of separation.

Mind in dantian gets us out of the head and allows the self to slowly dissolve.

Natural mind is a site of awareness (connexion) rather than thinking (separation). The more energy you bring to that awareness the deeper you delve.

You pour coffee from the finjan. As you wait for it to cool, grounds slowly settle and steam swirls upward. A perfect image of gravity/levity. Central Equilibrium.

Mind in dantian is easy. Just imagine you're pregnant. The growing embryo, delicate & fragile, needs all the TLC (mindfulness) you can muster.

F O U R F O L D

g r a v i t y
l e v i t y
v i t a l i t y
m o r t a l i t y

If we identify with our ego – a particular, dissociated set of ideas – we turn the universe at large, and even our own intrusive thoughts and unwanted feelings, into oppressive tyrants. They become external factors that constrain and coerce us. If, on the other hand, we identify not with particular dissociated ideas but with consciousness itself – with that whose excitations give rise to all thoughts and feelings – we attain unfathomable metaphysical free will. This arises not from the power of the ego to control the world, but from the realization that we are the world.

—Bernardo Kastrup

wit

wise

wizard

(same root)

For Heaven's sake keep your wits about you

ROOTING

A plant
extends down

into Earth
only to

gain the
support and

nourishment to
reach upwards.

When we think to ourselves we effectively stop the world by stepping off the wave of time which we rightly surf.

an egg
coddled

over a
candle

The Imagination is everything. Also Awareness is everything. How can they both be everything? Because they are the same. Awareness & Imagination amount to the same thing.

life

liege

lord

love

(same root)

unfinished & untitled – provisional

The word religion comes from the Latin religare to bind. So for me a religious person is someone who has bound up every part of life in their belief; someone who has effectively learnt to pray unceasingly; someone for whom life is, in a very real sense, all prayer.

Knowledge is the death of spirit.

Science deals in certainties; poetry in ambiguities.

being
belief
be life

The following realization rivals in its significance a religion: that once the background melody has been discovered one is no longer baffled in one’s speech and obscure in one’s decisions. There is a carefree security in the simple conviction that one is part of a melody, which means that one legitimately occupies a specific space and has a specific duty toward a vast work where the least counts as much as the greatest. Not to be extraneous is the first condition for an individual to consciously and quietly come into his own.

—Rainer Maria Rilke

Dantian is our Centre of Gravity about which we cohere.
Heart is our Centre of Levity from which we pour forth.

Meditation: presenting (gifting) the fulness of your being

Fear & worry hold you back

Dantian is where the descending aorta branches into the femoral arteries.

Sacrum in where the spine branches into the legs.

Awareness and Imagination amount to the same thing.

When with a teacher worth their salt, just listen. What they tell you is neither hearsay nor opinion. It is something they have either discovered for themselves or verified for themselves through hundreds of hours of practice. To either bolster or counter what they say with your opinion is both disrespectful and denigrating.

Between belief & suspicion : both critical & trusting.

The Imagination is the golden pathway to everywhere.

—Terence McKenna

Most of what passes for change is merely rearranging the furniture. Real change is next to impossible, and only becomes possible with the injection of grace. Our job is to work with the change so that we don't revert to old ways.

Mind with the movement so the movement can change the mind.

L I F E C O M E S I N F L A S H E S

When Carl Jung was asked if he believed in God he famously replied: I don't believe, I know. He could say this because he had done the work.

Humility comes when it dawns that grace is necessary to make any real headway.

Give me a savage mind any day

Ego is the proverbial big fish in a small pond. It's main activity is reducing the pond to enlarge itself.

I still take GOD IS LOVE to be the most radical utterance. Not because it illuminates God but because it tells me what Love is.

God is the aether, the aethereal

Mind in Dantian is a natural state if we remain ever hungry. Never eat to fulness. In Yoga they recommend always at least 25% empty.

m=E/c²

(matter is frozen light)

Meditation keeps the home fires burning

The best teacher lodges an intent not in the mind but in the heart.

—Anne Michaels, Fugitive Pieces, 1996

To learn anything worth learning we need passion & discipline.

If we don't embody the teaching then we don't have it.

Anything worth learning always presents difficulties only surmountable by change.

Real style is not having a program – it's how one behaves in a crisis.

—Frank Auerbach

Bring the mind to bear and a solution will present itself. Eventually. This is concentration and this is thinking. Good thinking.

Central equilibrium
A delicate poise
Hovering at the Point of Failure

Everything is psychosomatic

That for which we find words is something already dead in our hearts. There is always a kind of contempt in the act of speaking. 

—Nietzsche, The Twilight of the Idols

Nowadays we are all control freaks. We only allow into our lives what we can control. But spirit is not controllable so is banished, and ends up working against us. How does this manifest? The diseases of the burgeoning bourgeoisie: anxiety, depression, autoimmune disease, cancer.

I usually wake in the morning at the first signs of light. Even when the slats are closed the light is felt. So I rise, sit on my cushion facing East, and meditate to the sun rising over the distant hills. A perfect way to start the day. Real communication is always heart to heart.

There are points in the body where two or more threads of energy tie together. These points need a presence of mind to keep the threads connected otherwise they tend to separate and then we leak energy and weaken.

Crown
Third Eye
Tongue / Palate
Throat
Thymus
Lower heart
Solar plexus
Dantian
Perineum
Heels / Ground
Big toes / Ground
Touching thumb tips when meditating

Each time we practice we remind ourselves.

Maybe unmind would be a better word.

Practise as though your life depends upon it. 

Actually it doesn't but really it does.

The Daoist mind equilibrates rather than chooses.

Mind in the head is agitated
Mind in the dantian is still

How on Earth do we focus the mind on the task at hand, except fleetingly? This is the problem that plagues every student that has ventured a tap of work. And the answer is simple enough: through the heart. It is not the mind that focuses the mind but the heart. The key to staying undistracted is a loving heart.

The only way the work will get done is if you fall in love with it.

L I V E D A N G E R O U S L Y

Float with me in the world of ether.
—David Lynch

Makes a good mantra.

At primary school, in our maths class, we were introduced to the concept of Infinity. I remember the teacher explaining to us that Infinity is an abstract concept invented by mathematicians, and it doesn't exist in the real concrete world where everything is finite. Spiritual work reveals that the opposite is in fact the case. Every natural thing is infinite — there being no end to its unfolding detail — and the finite is very much a man-made condition of his fabricated, unnatural world.

Learn to keep secrets.

In the interests of spirit, make a point of breaking the law at least once a day.

Adulthood is the abdication of ecstasy.
—Simon Critchley

Make a list of habits in the day that cannot be avoided:

Arising
Toilet
Showering
Dressing
Practice
Breakfast (making & eating)
Washing-up
Driving to work
Etc etc

Then look at each one and try to find a way of doing it better: more relaxed, more aware/mindful, more in the legs.

This is bringing the practice (in)to life.

F U L L O F T H E J O Y S O F L I F E

Meditation: learning to bear the lightness of being

THE WAY IT IS

There's a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change. But it doesn't change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can't get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time's unfolding.
You don't ever let go of the thread.


—William Stafford

Beginner's luck is a consequence of beginner's mind.
No experience; no expectation.

Only natural fibres next to the skin.
Cotton, linen, hemp, preferably.

G E T O F F Y O U R H E A D

The root is simply the spine driving down through the leg and into the ground.

The price to pay for the safety of the herd is a mind-numbing conformity.

If you wish to feel energy then you need to pay attention. Listen to the world worlding rather than the self selfing.

Middle-aged spread smacks of complacency.

Spirit excited but internally gathered

The only way to become whole & complete is to push into those areas you dare not venture.

Artificial Intelligence is an oxymoron

A drug is something that helps in the short-term but works against you in the long-term. Most of the time we spend drug-addled in some way or another.

Bourgeois = shallow rationalism + selfish materialism

the alchemy of living

LOVE HAS TANGENTS


Fidelity to patience
is the theme
I have kindled
behind every effort

The apogee
The same thing
A different way
Day after day

My love has tangents
not resolutions

Times have changed
Time has changed

Passing into one another
The surface of gestures
An amalgam
of deepening touch

Abandon ideology
Abandon self-loss
The wager is visible

There is no difference
Between the damned and the saved

Pardon
An inseparable face
Inside you


—Pam Rehm

primacy of the spirit

We are dealing in infinites & infinitesimals. Everything is infinite in the sense that it defies full description, and eveything is infinitesimal because we are.

Meditation: the performance of emptiness

We practice not just for our sake. It is how we serve the present. We produce peace and thereby make the world a better place, if only a little.

我不思故我悟
—顾明栋

I do not think, therefore I understand.
—Ming Dong Gu