20250830

One doesn't wait for a revolution. One becomes it.

—Carl Safina, The View from Lazy Point, 2012
Beware Buddhist drowsiness

20250829

MEDITATION

Mind sinks down to dantian
Spirit floats above the head

20250828

There is a foreign land within

20250827

資訊不等於知識
知識不等於智力
智力不等於智慧

Information is not knowledge
Knowledge is not intelligence
Intelligence is not wisdom

20250826

I am a little world made cunningly
Of Elements, and an Angelike spright


—John Donne

20250825

A passion for work

20250824

Estrangement from the mainstream

20250823

Practise like crazy : tap the Primal Well
Deep down inside what do we really desire? Death. The death of self or Ego certainly because that's the part of us that keeps us separate and ultimately unhappy, but also physical death because it's only then that the Ego truly is gone and the Spirit free.

20250822

When one keeps quiet, the situation becomes clear.

—Albert Camus
When I first came to Israel I tried psychotherapy. A few weeks in, my therapist (whom I admired) asked me to write a list of the five things that were most important to me. 
"Like what?"
"Like happiness, money, family..."
So I sat for quite a while thinking & compiling. 
When I had finished I handed her the list. 
"Now this is very interesting," she said, "Number one is Softness and number two is Intimacy, and here you are in a country where you are not going to find either..."

20250821

Once, wallowing in the doldrums, I asked my teacher why, despite all my work, I was making such little progress. He replied: Because you're resisting the teaching with all your might.

20250820

touching & moving
When someone you know passes mildly away, after a good, long life, it is no time for mourning. Just sit quietly, close your eyes, and remember their spirit. Its lightness & sparkle, humour & mischief, and you'll feel that spirit now soaring free.
Not a state, of affairs or otherwise, but an ongoing process. 

Not an object, discrete or otherwise, but a bundle of connexions.

20250819

So let us melt and make no noise…
No matter what the age declares of itself, no matter how absent of spiritual truth and tendency you operate, there is beneath the loquacious level that your rationalism inhabits a deeper level to your nature where intuitions and occult convolutions gather and where, even deeper, a darkness emanates the material of creation. It’s poetry that narrates and demonstrates that dark energy, an unconsuming fire in which our imaginations come most intensely to life.

—Peter O'Leary, Thick & Dazzling Darkness: Religious Poetry in a Secular Age, 2017
It's not what you do with your body that makes it qigong but what you do with your mind.
The most important thing in life is to go beyond where your talent takes you. This requires grace.

20250818

Depression is an excess of gravity / lack of levity.
Madness is an excess of levity / lack of gravity.
Turning allows us to give and take simultaneously. This is yielding.
Distraction & depression – the chief conditions of our time. (They are related.)

20250817

Let the Taiji carry you away. Otherwise you're going through the motions.
The teacher provides a Form.
We provide the content.
Softness is natural – of nature and of our nature – our natural mind. Ego, being an unnatural man-made construct, is never really soft, though it is good at pretending (lying).

20250816

If you so wish you can become aflame.

—Abba Joseph of Panephysis
Look softly – eyes unfocus and swivel inward.
G O D  I S  L O V E

L O V E  I S  G I V I N G

(great mantras)
The letting go of certainties.

20250815

Just stay in awareness. 

—Sheng Yen
Draw the world into the belly, and issue your energy from the belly. 

(Belly as place of rumination & digestion but also of silent knowledge, intuition, wisdom.)
There is a saying in Taiji: It never gets any easier. This is because when you practice daily, with faith, sincerity & courage, that practice naturally homes in on your weak points, and these are always difficult to face.

20250814

Each time we meditate we are presented with a clear choice: head or heart, hard or soft, tense or relaxed, fear or love.
Ego is where we hide from God.

20250813

The mind is usually centred, grounded, rooted in a sense of self – a separateness from the world – from which it inevitably regards and judges that world. This centre (Ego) appears firm, stable and real but only because the mind is constantly reinforcing it with its endless chatter. During meditation we allow the mind to quieten & soften, and then Ego can be seen for what it is – a man-made construct with no analogue in Nature.
Ego is our pact with Satan.
The easiest way to steal someone's energy is to coax them to your rhythm, to your time.

20250812

My favorite tool is my own hand, an extension of my body. It is a tool shaped by time and experience, refined through years of practice.

—Kwak Kyung-Tae
Like a tiger on the prowl, carefully picking its way through the undergrowth, ready to pounce at any moment.
The most important relationship we have in life is the one with God. This regulates all the others.

20250811

What attracted me to Taiji was its revolutionary aspect – it promised (threatened) change and freedom. Revolution – upturn – overthrow of the ultimate tyrant – Ego.

20250810

God's face is what we see when we awaken from the solipsism of self.

20250809

When we talk of freedom it is always freedom from self, never freedom of self.

20250808

It's not what you see but the intensity of the seeing.

20250807

You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked; it has no choice. It will roll in ecstasy at your feet.

—Franz Kafka, The Zürau Aphorisms, 1919

20250806

on-the-spur-of-the-moment

20250805

The best experiences are those we can't talk about.

20250804

The cure for pain is in the pain.

—Rumi

20250803

A body always ready to push beyond its limits.

A mind always ready to think the unthinkable.

A spirit always ready to make a mad dash for freedom.
Pay attention. The price of admission in this wonderful adventure called life.
The bourgeoisie feel entitled to anything & everything, but especially shortcuts.
The only way to change is through discipline. In other words: practice.

20250802

We are at our very best the moment—for whatever reason—the heart leaps free.

20250801

A lust for life—pure—without the trappings.

20250731

Most spend life endlessly renovating their prison cell when they could be breaking free.

20250730

κένωσις (kénōsis): self-emptying

20250729

I am on permanent vacation. This surprising state of affairs is the life that I have been called to, and it has lasted almost six decades. My good fortune is known as a vocation. Monastic life is essentially a vacating, an emptying out, not unlike vacating an apartment and living without furniture, or even without an apartment. Monastics (men and women) vacate the world and go where people of the world do not want to go and remain. To live in solitude, to be specific, is one of the most difficult things for a person to endure. “Man’s unhappiness,” as Pascal said, “springs from one thing alone, his incapacity to stay quietly in one room.” In more ways than one, that is precisely what I have been doing for a long time—except, rather than inside a room, I prefer to be outside. The generous ceiling of the sky for me is more congenial to solitude, precisely because there I find company with the visible world around me.

But this outward solitude is not enough. Vacating means a personal emptying out of clutter within the mind and heart, certainly a clearing of the nonessential and even some essential furniture to make room for God. A normal home has spouses and maybe children. Life in a monastic community can never be quite the equivalent of a family, although there may be plenty of people around. Radically, there must be an interior journey into a wilderness to be alone, free of the world and at rest in God. Living in cenobitic community might seem to upgrade this desert to the status of a private resort, with all conveniences provided, like laundry and cooking. Perhaps that sounds too good to be true. Well, it is. You will shortly find this is not the case. Everyone here has to put in a hand and do his own part. Work is one of the forms of this emptiness, this vacation. It enhances prayer and keeps it from going static and stale. Likewise, prayer is a form of work – “the work of God,” as St. Benedict called it. It requires intention, attention, and persistence.


—Paul Quenon, In Praise of the Useless Life: A Monk's Memoir, 2018

20250728

YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE
BUT IF YOU GET IT RIGHT
ONCE IS ENOUGH

(Graffiti)
If you must think then always outside the box.

20250727

The mind is a terrible master but a wonderful servant.

20250726

The miracle of turning is that it allows us to retreat and advance at the same time. This is yielding.
After weeks of watching the roof leak I fixed it tonight by moving a single board.

—Gary Snyder

20250725

The miracle of a work of art is that it contains far far more than what the artist put into it.

20250724

It's a rare student that really wants to change.

20250723

Meditation: sit with a vertical spine and let gravity do the work for you

20250722

Spiritual work endeavours to experience what we already know.

20250721

Buddha means awakened one. The practice of Buddhism leads us towards our essential Buddha-nature — an awakened (enlightened) state. Fundamental to this practice is compassion: a willingness to embrace and suffer with the other. This is all heart.

20250720

Dismantle the egoic operating system.

20250716

I don't ask for the sights in front of me to change, only the depth of my seeing.

—Mary Oliver

20250715

Taijiquan is built on softness, yielding and spirit. We fall in love with each until they are all we are and all there is.

20250713

Zheng Manqing's famous Taiji hand. Relaxed, soft & accommodating (yielding), with space between each finger. Try to get the feet the same. Toes all separate and somewhat independent of each other.

20250712

We don't get sad anymore, we get depressed.

20250711

In more than thirty years of research, I’ve discovered a very important truth about human psychology: certainty is a cruel mindset. It hardens our minds against possibility and closes them to the world we actually live in.

Ellen J Langer, Counterclockwise: Mindful Health and the Power of Possibility, Penguin, 2009
attentive without being obtrusive

20250710

The psychology of possibility

20250709

roots & transformations
When I die I suspect the first question I'll be asked is not how good have I been but have I actually lived.

20250708

attention, care & concern
I have had two Taiji teachers: firstly John Kells (1984-2006) and secondly Nitsan Michaeli (2007-2010). Their approaches are miles apart. John's work (and life) was all spirit whereas Nitsan works almost exclusively on the root. But they have three crucial things in common: both love Taiji, both stress that Taiji is all about connexion, and both consider Enlightenment a hoax.

20250707

The authentic life: all attention (head), gut-feelings (belly), and spirit (heart).

20250706

Eight years ago, at John's funeral, I had a little word with each family member (all of whom I knew well). His younger sister Valerie had a few years before married a Muslim and had converted to Islam. They had since divorced so I assumed that her Islam, like her previous Catholicism, would have lapsed, but there she was, clearly dressed as a Muslim woman. I said to her, I thought she would have given all that up. "Steven, it's not something you grow out of, it's something you grow more and more into!" Ah, just like Taiji, I thought.

20250704

Poetry is a pheasant disappearing in the brush.

—Wallace Stevens

20250703

Meditation: time out of the language centre

20250702

Hail-fellow-well-met

from the archaic salutation
"Hail, fellow! Well met!"

20250701

get by on less

20250630

A life buoyed by attentiveness.

20250629

A breath of fresh air, a relationship with the outside world.

—Deleuze & Guattari, Anti-Oedipus, 1972
The atmosphere is not a perfume, it has no taste of the distillation, it is odorless,
It is for my mouth forever, I am in love with it,
I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and naked,
I am mad for it to be in contact with me.


—Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, 1892
Keep to a 
yielding mind: 

ready for all 
possibilities—
The work proceeds from the conviction that we are in the world all wrong – selfishly.
This is what
we do—

use up
resources

wipe out
indigenous populations

destroy
ecosystems

all in the name
of progress.

20250628

the enduring transcendentalist tradition
He didn’t so much teach as exemplify, which is the way it should be, since even the wisest lesson soon sounds like drivel.

Douglas Crase, writing about James Schuyler

20250627

They could not see
the river for the bank
yet still kept talking
about the bridge.

Jennifer Moxley
Flirting with madness

20250626

repetitive & ever-changing

20250625

SPIRIT: conflate God, Life, Love, Nature
Loosen the mind, but don't lose it.

20250624

Life on a shoestring

20250623

In order to bring inspiration to people I must not be concerned with applause by the audience. I must stand erect, tall, and straight. I must be of a clear head and pure heart (no stimulants).

—Sonny Rollins, The Notebooks

20250622

we enter time’s fullness not by clinging to it but by cutting ourselves loose from it

20250621

Rid your life of journalese. The antidote is poetry.

20250620

I have always felt that I am an empiricist, that is, a pluralist. But what does this equivalence between empiricism and pluralism mean? It derives from the two characteristics by which Whitehead defined empiricism: the abstract does not explain, but must itself be explained; and the aim is not to rediscover the eternal or the universal, but to find the conditions under which something new is produced (creativeness).

—Gilles Deleuze in Gilles Deleuze & Claire Parnet: Dialogues II, Columbia University Press, 2007
Gravity & levity : stillness & spirit

20250619

Practice: time spent engaging the principles of Taiji

20250618

prais-
ing

this
mo-
ment

with
all

of
his
heart

gave
him
heart


Robert Lax

20250617

time speeds up in the presence of levity
(time flies when you're having fun)
It's not what you do that counts but the passion – the enthusiasm – with which you do it.
time slows down in the presence of gravity
(a watched kettle never boils)

20250616

linked through social media yet disconnected from real people
OBSERVE SHABBAT

rest & worship
(gravity & levity)

20250615

Kindness creates connexion.
Soul is not essence, self or identity, but the sum total of all our connexions.
Practice is an act of kindness. Kind to your soul and kind to your world.

20250614

Progress in Taiji (and there must be progress otherwise you're not travelling a path, you're just standing still) is a slow (think decades) process of getting closer to the ground. Sinking, sinking, sinking, which requires stronger legs, more flexible hips, more open groin. When I encounter old students who have kept up their daily practice but without a teacher to spur them on (fire their spirit), this is what they lack: their Taiji is all upper body with no root.
shining eyes (levity) & a quiet mind (gravity)

20250613

quiet
is always
quiet
rejoined



(Thomas A Clark)

20250612

All spiritual work, internal work, real work, boils down to one thing: trying to quieten the mind.

When you meditate and watch the noisy mind, what's it actually talking about? It's usually grumbling: going through a litany of complaints and resentments in order to reinforce its sense of self-righteousness. This is what Nietzsche called slave mentality. The slave silently grumbles at the master – he's full of resentments. The master, in contrast, has a quiet mind because he doesn't need to grumble – everything is under his control.

Hegel had a master/slave story. The master decides he shouldn't have to do menial jobs anymore so he buys himself a slave to do them for him. Because the master is not working he is getting weaker as time goes by, and because the slave is working, he's getting stronger as time goes by. So there comes a point when the slave overthrows the master. Now Nietzsche's big insight is: okay this happens, the slave may overthrow the master, but he will still have slave mentality, he will still have the noisy mind.

And this is what we are basically. We are masters of our lives in the sense that we have enough income not to have to worry about starving and other unpleasant things – we appear happy & content – but we still have the noisy mind. And you can see that to break this is different than just having more money to make life more comfortable. That sort of excess doesn't help at all.

The difference really between the slave mind and the master mind is that the slave is looking at the world and desiring. It's the whole market economy – capitalism is the slave mind in action. The master wants for nothing, so he can be himself, looking out and commanding his world. The slave is always looking at a world that is beyond it, moaning to itself because it can't have it. The slave thrives on envy. That's what we need to do something about.

20250611

Become a peacemaker. Always see both sides.

20250610

輕 則 靈
靈 則 動
動 則 變

Lightness leads to agility
Agility leads to movement
Movement leads to change

20250609

It's been obvious for a long time now that we can't go on like this…

20250608

God breathes through us so completely...so gently we hardly feel it...yet, it is our everything.

—John Coltrane

20250607

動 中 求 靜
靜 中 求 動

Seek stillness in movement
Seek movement in stillness

20250606

There are many paths. What they all have in common is practice.

20250605

To some degree we are all crippled by fear, conditioning and culture. Endeavour to step aside from each. This is the work.

20250604

Nature is solar powered. Burning fossil fuel is our big mistake. Reintroducing all that carbon, which had been conveniently locked underground, back into the atmosphere was bound to cause global warming. We only have ourselves to blame.
move with restful cadence

20250603


Imagine how you'd feel if you ventured into this church. The mind would likely be stunned into reverential silence, and the heart lifted to the vaults above. Awestruck.

When we meditate with erect posture then we become our own church or temple.
On a wing and a prayer

20250602

ATTENTION

Sacrum and manubrium align allowing sacrum to sink and manubrium to rise
Seek knowledge — increase daily
Seek Dao — decrease daily

20250601

Meditation: the practice of emptying

20250531

Go out & play!

20250530

Without forgiveness there is no healing and the past keeps repeating itself.

20250529

Missing the odd meal is good for you.
The two aspects of yielding: extending a presence behind the other, and opening a space within for the other to come into.

20250528

Meditation: savouring time rather than passing the time.

20250527

slowly but surely

20250526

I've had over ten thousand students in my time and is all I ever wanted is for them to get their bums in.

—John Robert Kells

20250525

Virginia Woolf expressed the purpose of her journal on 20 April 1919: I should like it to resemble some deep old desk, or capacious hold-all, in which one flings a mass of odds and ends without looking them through.
A good therapist listens so well the patient reveals things forgotten or repressed. Active listening: not just hearing what's offered but encouraging divulgence.

20250524

20250523

VIGIL  the act of keeping awake at times when sleep is customary; a period of wakefulness; an event or a period of time when a person or group stays in a place and quietly waits, prays, etc, especially at night
Spirit is all around all the time so if we are unaware of it it is because we are clotted with self.

20250522

xin zhai  心齋  mind fasting

20250521

This age of shameless conformity.
volatile & mercurial

20250520

Don't let trauma define you. Neither your own nor your clan's. And Ego is a trauma – it's how you conceive and therefore construct yourself when spirit / connexion has withered.

20250519

THE CALL

I was suddenly
required to be
like my soul

20250518

Throughout Chinese history, there have always been people who preferred to spend their lives in the mountains, getting by on less, sleeping under thatch, wearing old clothes, working the higher slopes, not talking much, writing even less—maybe a few poems, a recipe or two. Out of touch with the times but not with the seasons, they cultivated roots of the spirit, trading flatland dust for mountain mist. Distant and insignificant, they were the most respected men and women in the world’s oldest society.

—Bill Porter (Red Pine), Road to Heaven, Counterpoint Press, 1993

20250516

Spirit as first principle – arkhe ἀρχή – apeiron ἄπειρον – chaos χάος – substrate – dark energy.
Wisdom is like water. It resides in the lower meditation field, the belly. The head is for thinking; the heart for willing and desiring. The belly is the place for wisdom and contemplation. We ‘return’ to Dao’s gestating presence from this inner womb of intuitive awareness.

—Master Zhuang (quoted in Michael Saso: The Teachings of Daoist Master Zhuang, Oracle Bones Press, 2012)

20250515

ancient & living
Ultimately, awareness / consciousness / spirit are the same.
deus sive natura
Every artwork worth its salt is created with spirit and can only be understood with spirit.
Fascism is a refusal to admit critique.

20250514

P a t h f i n d e r
Pain is a challenge to be in the world differently.

20250513

To free the spirit you must first unburden the heart-mind.

20250512

In a nutshell, the work allows you to transition from control – the way many of us seek to organize our lives, to trust – the foundation for creating a fluid relationship with time.

Paul Loomans, I've Got Time, Watkins Publishing, 2024
Listening, as ethics and ecology
The slowness of a hunting animal on the prowl.
G r o u n d b r e a k i n g
Trying to find a better way of being in the world. More awake/aware; more graceful/gracious; more responsive/responsible.
This life of glimmers

20250511

The teacher's words are meant to inspire practice, not replace it.
There is a saying in the martial arts: Timing is everything. And timing (the ability to thrive in real time) is always a matter for spirit. Spirit doesn't just find the right moment, spirit makes the moment.
We all have a world view and we believe anything that reinforces that view and we deny or disregard anything that contradicts it. We create the world before we encounter it.
The only real religion is animism. All those that have come since (except maybe Daoism, which isn't really a religion) are far more to do with social control than truth.

20250510

Confucianist in public but Daoist in private.
Brief habits — I love brief habits and consider them an inestimable means for getting to know many things and states, down to the bottom of their sweetness and bitternesses. My nature is designed entirely for brief habits, even in the needs of my physical health and altogether as far as I can see at all— from the lowest to the highest. I always believe that here is something that will give me lasting satisfaction—brief habits, too, have this faith of passion, this faith in eternity—and that I am to be envied for having found and recognized it; and now it nourishes me at noon and in the evening and spreads a deep contentment all around itself and deep into me so that I desire nothing else, without having any need for comparisons, contempt, or hatred. But one day its time is up; the good thing parts from me, not as something that has come to nauseate me but peacefully and sated with me as I am with it—as if we had reason to be grateful to each other as we shook hands to say farewell. Even then something new is waiting at the door, along with my faith—this indestructible fool and sage!—that this new discovery will be just right, and that this will be the last time. That is what happens to me with dishes, ideas, human beings, cities, poems, music, doctrines, ways of arranging the day, and life styles.

Enduring habits I hate. I feel as if a tyrant had come near me and as if the air I breathe had thickened when events take such a turn that it appears that they will inevitably give rise to enduring habits; for example, owing to an official position, constant association with the same people, a permanent domicile, or unique good health. Yes, at the very bottom of my soul I feel grateful to all my misery and bouts of sickness and everything about me that is imperfect, because this sort of thing leaves me with a hundred backdoors through which I can escape from enduring habits. Most intolerable, to be sure, and the terrible par excellence would be for me a life entirely devoid of habits, a life that would demand perpetual improvisation. That would be my exile and my Siberia.

—Friedrich Nietzsche, The Gay Science, 295

20250509

Spirit is a scalpel that nicks open a vein, allowing energy to flow.
Civilization is the enemy of spirit and so the enemy of soul and so the enemy of man.
Performing Taiji, you are not an object moving, you are the movement, the energy.
We are habits, nothing but habits—the habit of saying ‘I’

—Gilles Deleuze, Empiricism & Subjectivity, 1953

20250508

GOOD HABIT : very much a provisional institution and ultimately an oxymoron

20250507

All the problems facing the world today, from global warming to mass extinction to the new rise of tyrants, can be traced back to one cause: overpopulation.
We willingly sell our souls for toys & protection.

20250506

Spinal hygiene
Given we are good students (practise daily), our only choice is whether to fail miserably or joyfully.

(Beckett said it better. So did Castaneda.)

20250505

Most of us live on autopilot.
Practise daily, without endgaining.
There is no end.

20250504

Only when lost for words do we find out who we really are.

20250503

Man, you might say, is nature dreaming...

—Robinson Jeffers
This era of cultural decline and ecological degradation.
Ego is a parasite living in the psyche and feeding on thoughts, words, worry. Through meditation we slowly starve it. But it never dies – just leaves you enough psychic energy (awareness) to perceive energy, spirit and (eventually) Dao.

20250502

Thought does not exist where love is. 

—Jiddu Krishnamurti

20250501

Get involved but don't interfere
The difference between the poor student and the good student is courage.
Listen with rapt attention

20250430

Back in the early eighties when I started Taiji, the BTCCA (British T'ai Chi Ch'uan Association) held a seven hour Intensive on the first Saturday of every month. Toward the end of each of these sessions, Grand Master John Robert Kells, who always led the proceedings, gave an inspiring talk (effectively a dharma talk). These would always start the same way: "The most important word in Taiji is RESPECT," and then would go off on a wonderfully inventive tangent. I always tell my students that the most important word in Taiji is LISTENING. Respect & listening are really the same thing.
Choiceless awareness

20250429

Find out for yourself.
This is why we practise.
Everyday consume something fermented: kefir, sauerkraut, kombucha, yogurt, miso…

20250428

MEDITATION

Imagine you're at home, seated comfortably in your favourite armchair, watching television. The lights are low and the programme is entertaining. Suddenly, for whatever reason, the TV dies and you're left in the dark. You pull yourself forward to the edge of the seat, readying to arise and check the electricity. As you sit, perched on the edge, your eyes start to grow accustomed to the dark and you notice the gentle luminescence of the room. It's as though the surrounding objects slowly start to come alive, revealing a very different reality: more subtle, more mysterious, more natural.

20250427

Empty your mind
Empty your life
The more mind empties, the more spacious it becomes.
Only tolerate company you admire: those that elevate, edify and leave you cleaner.
We are so much more than what we think we are.
Spirit fires up – ignites – and you become a firebrand lighting up the way.
Listening for possibilities we haven't anticipated.

20250426

Spirit is the agent of becoming. Without spirit the past repeats itself and the real future never properly opens up.

20250425

Dantian: a place that, precisely because it is so empty and inhospitable, offers the possibility of dwelling.
Spirit: a willingness to dance / play

20250424

Rather than verb tenses inscribing our metaphysics of linear time into consciousness, classical Chinese verbs are unconjugated, simply registering emergence, occurrence appearing of itself in a kind of boundless present. And classical Chinese has minimal grammar, so pictographic ideograms seem to be each emerging from a generative emptiness.

David Hinton

20250423

Love is a burgeoning heart.

20250422

Poetry is language invested with spirit

20250421

Thinking (mind) is a morass of prejudice.
An important element of a short poem is the white space that surrounds/contains it.

20250420

Spirit is the unbearable lightness of being.

20250419

Science's obsession with the material & measurable.

20250418

Monotheism is simply the deification of male Ego.

20250417

Acting creatively rather than reacting habitually.
The abuser always forgets but, for the life of them, the abused cannot.
Advice:
  • Follow your nose
  • Do as you're told

20250416

Until we move towards a broader view of self which incorporates spirit – an Atmavidya – psychology will remain simply the study of our psychological surfaces.

Elliot Cohen

20250415

20250414

Aware: Middle English waren "to be mindful, be on guard," going back to Old English warian "to be wary, guard, protect," going back to Germanic warōjan- (whence Old Saxon waron "to attend to, protect," Old High German biwarōn, Old Norse vara "to warn," varask "to be on one's guard")

Awake: Old English wæccan to watch, Latin vegēre to enliven; Norwegian dialect vok, Old Norse vǫk hole in ice

20250413

I distinguish three fundamental sets of Taiji principles:
  • Principles of Station: sink & relax; upright spine;
  • Principles of Motion: single-weightedness; turning the waist;
  • Principle of Continuity: keeping the mind on the job, also called Mind Continuous or the Principle of Flow.
Mind Continuous is the space in which the first two sets of principles (the physical principles) operate. It allows them to work together and regulate each other, each creating, preserving, and negating the others.

20250412

Attack from the heart
Yield into the belly

20250411

The Spirit of Hope
Is this not a tautology?

20250410

Practice expresses faith, generates love.

20250408

As dantian contracts into the here & now, mind expands into the ever-increasing void. Condensation & evaporation.

20250407

Soft mind connects
Hard mind controls

20250406

The main function of the rational mind is not to think but to blot out energy.

20250405

Birth was the death of him.      (Beckett)
Taiji mind: awake, attentive, alert. Neither desire nor need to know. Knowledge unnecessary clutter.

20250404

Keep the mind on the job. If I manage that, and keep repeating the exercise, I will be taken, via central equilibrium, into heightened awareness, into spirit. If my mind wanders at all, I won't; I will be simply wasting time.

20250403

As dantian contracts into the here & now – the local – the mind expands into the ever-increasing void. Condensation & evaporation.

20250402

RESPECT: the proverbial second glance

20250401

LISTENING: our first act of compassion

20250331

The problem with human beings is that very early on we learnt how to cheat.

20250330

Is all we're trying to do in this game is wake up. So simple, so natural, so easy. So why don't we? Because we don't really want to.

20250329

Humanity's deeper needs: meaning, community, transcendence.

20250328

20250327

Space peppered with spirit.

20250325

Truth is infinite and of the Void.
Knowledge is finite and of the World.

20250324

a fart fraught with meaning      (Beckett)

20250323

When the teacher gives an instruction you cannot understand, a part of you hasn't woken up yet.

20250322

Paradox is the rule, not the exception.

20250321

Mind in dantian. When it wanders off just bring it back.
Ever feel suspicious there's a bigger picture we're not quite getting?
From a certain point on, there is no more turning back. This point must be reached.

—Franz Kafka

Von einem gewissen Punkt an gibt es keine Rückkehr mehr. Dieser Punkt ist zu erreichen.

20250320

Humble literally means of the ground, earth, soil, dirt, dust

20250319

Bene qui latuit bene vixit
Peeling away the scabs of conditioning, worry & ambition, to reveal the truth – a gentle naked spark of awareness.

20250318

Ward off: turn aside something threatening; deflect; ward off a blow, trying to ward off a cold      (Merriam-Webster)

20250317

I am an archaeologist of morning

20250316

What spoils people is thinking (they have a choice)

20250315

We don't experience reality, we experience a world.
A world is what we turn reality into with our minds.

20250314

a dazed inarticulacy

20250313

The ground is our felt-sense of support and stability that lies beneath the body, and therefore our deepest ground is underground. There are different levels to this sense of being grounded. On one level—the most obvious one—we feel rooted in and connected to the earth. Our bodies are earth-bodies, and we are able to feel this earthy connection. Another level, less frequented, is archetypal.

John Prendergast
A shift from economy to ecology.
From economics to ecologics.
Burn your bridges otherwise as soon as the going gets tough you'll run home to mummy.
Before we work on 
ARTIFICIAL
INTELLIGENCE
why don't we do
something about
NATURAL
STUPIDITY?

(T-shirt slogan in TLV)

20250312

from a transcendent superstructure to an immanent infrastructure
An artist is someone who, for the life of them, cannot conform.
Measure progress in decades.
gratefully & gracefully
That she had so completely recovered her sanity was a source of sadness to her. One should never be cured of one's passion.

—Marguerite Duras
Don't waste time with people you don't admire. Life's too short.

20250311

The closer we get to the truth, the more difficult it is to face. Only purity can behold truth. Patiently await a moment of grace.
Last week my daughter had an English exam at school. She told me that many of the students had their phones on their laps, typing questions into an AI app, and then copying out the answers. I asked if there was no invigilator present. "Yes there was, but he was on his phone the whole time and didn't notice what people were doing."

20250310

Listen quietly in primed readiness. For as long as it takes. This is intelligence.
Internal work is all about changing the mind.
Meditation: Sein und Zeit

20250309

Invite spirit in and you'll go crazy. Keep it out and you'll get depressed. It's your choice. In fact it's the only choice.
An artist, in the act of creation, becomes a conduit for spirit. 

The same for us as we perform the Taiji Form.

I call it heightened awareness – the intense listening that draws spirit into the mix.

20250308

behold beingness, that most sacred of treasures

Don Domanski

20250307

GRAVITY
I sink into Earth
Earth rises into me
LEVITY
I rise to Heaven
Heaven sinks into me
GRAVITY
I sink into Earth
Earth rises into me

MEDITATION 

Heedfulness
Vigilance
Diligence
Watchfulness
Awareness
Earnestness

LISTENING

20250306

The Internal is a milieu where money is irrelevant.
The only way to get ahead is through practice.

20250305

And wonder is a twine of wands lodged
to spine of nothing I know at least to hold.

Clark Coolidge

20250304

We need energy to feel energy
we need spirit to engage spirit.
Deep is the new four-letter word.

20250303

I remember once discussing with teacher whether either of us would have started the work if we had known at the beginning how difficult it was going to be. We both said No, but then realised that it wasn't a matter of choice; it was destiny. We didn't choose the work, the work chose us.

20250302

Life's too short to dabble.

20250301

One continues on a long walk not by effort of will but through fidelity.

Thomas A Clark
Tell it like it is. No one really listens anyway.
Deep down we are all infantile.

20250228

If you want to get half an hour of good quality practice in then you need at least an hour of free time.
It's been obvious for a long time that we can't go on like this…

20250227

Meditation: waiting for the murk to clear and the spirit to sparkle

20250226

If you truly listen, you will be amazed. You will realise that the space you inhabit is transcendental (of spirit) and that your mind, being (of) that space, is also transcendental.

20250225

We only become free when we let go. This is why relaxation is crucial.
The rational mind is not a creative tool (that would be the Imagination). Is all it can do is give a trivial reason for something that really has no reason. Like saying that the reason behind your existence is that your mother and father once copulated.
the disturbing
reality of

rampant
consumerism

political
corruption

moral
degradation

eating
away

at the
nation’s soul
FOUR CONDITIONS OF HAPPINESS

Life in the open air
Love for another being
Freedom from ambition
Creation

—Albert Camus
Before we can begin to even contemplate living at peace with each other we must first stop waging war on the natural world.
Alive in such a way that the world is always new.

20250224

Reduce the External as much as possible so that the Internal can expand into the vacated space. This is the Void. Empty of things but full of spirit. What Deleuze aptly called the Transcendental Field.
Give & take 
Give attention 
Take care

20250223

Letting go of everything: fear, anxiety, control, knowledge, expertise, opinions, values, judgements …
The modern mind grips things so tightly, with its anxious need to control, it reduces & strangles them. The enlightened mind is the opposite. Ever letting go, it shrinks to nothing, allowing the world to expand into fullness.

20250222

What fuels the noisy mind is the critical eye
Daily practice sheds anxiety, generates good energy, and gathers peace of mind. We are then better prepared to engage the world and give to the world.
soft eyes
invite

the world
rather

than push
it away
Imagine walking down the street minding your own business. You notice someone ahead looking lost. As you approach they politely ask directions. You graciously oblige. They thank you, exchange a few pleasantries, and head off with a new confidence. You continue on your way with a fuller heart. This is what life is all about: creating good feeling.

20250221

Anxiety, which is really just a need to know, inhibits the outflowing of your energy.
An empty depth

The Void

20250220

If you wish to experience levity, simply sit and watch the sunrise. You will realise that the sun rises not only over the hills, it also rises up through you.

20250219

The deeper the Form takes you, the longer you'll need to recover. 
Think of it as slow digestion or rumination.
Whenever I type    meditation    my spell-checker corrects to   medication

20250218

a modern episteme marked by disenchantment
soft  =  of energy

20250217

Reject the spiritual paucity of modern life.

20250216

An inner life rich enough to resist the need to conform.

20250215

Good people are givers.
Bad people are takers.

Avoid the latter.
Love does not make you weak because it is the source of all strength, but it makes you see the nothingness of the illusory strength on which you depended before you knew it.

—Léon Bloy

20250214

each foot a
stethoscope

auscultating

subterrene
grumbling
If the work you have decided to devote your life to is not making you a better person then you have either made the wrong choice or are working in the wrong way.
Fetishes of the Floating World
Scientists have found that sitting in meditation slows heart and breathing far more effectively than sleeping or relaxing on the sofa.

20250213

Once again I should like to start with the wound.

—Joseph Beuys
Would you rather be a sheep – a conforming subject – or a lone wolf?
The only time I feel lonely is when I'm in the wrong company.
Words cannot speak the truth. The best they can do is point beyond themselves towards the truth.

20250212

SINK & RELAX

First principle of Taiji. Both imply letting go (desist resisting). Let what needs to happen happen.

Physically: let go tension and gravity will pull the body down to ground.

Mentally: let go self (importance) and the mind will expand (recede) into the back/ground – the ground of being – the ocean of consciousness.

Spiritually: let sparks of vitality emerge from the ocean and animate everything (you do).
Develop a weather eye: an eye quick to observe coming changes (in the weather). A constant and shrewd watchfulness and alertness.

20250211

The incessant chatter in the head serves one purpose: to reinforce the sense of self, of separation.

Mind in dantian gets us out of the head and allows the self to slowly dissolve.

Natural mind is a site of awareness (connexion) rather than thinking (separation). The more energy you bring to that awareness the deeper you delve.

20250210

You pour coffee from the finjan. As you wait for it to cool, grounds slowly settle and steam swirls upward. A perfect image of gravity/levity. Central Equilibrium.

20250209

Mind in dantian is easy. Just imagine you're pregnant. The growing embryo, delicate & fragile, needs all the TLC (mindfulness) you can muster.

20250208

F O U R F O L D

g r a v i t y
l e v i t y
v i t a l i t y
m o r t a l i t y

20250207

If we identify with our ego – a particular, dissociated set of ideas – we turn the universe at large, and even our own intrusive thoughts and unwanted feelings, into oppressive tyrants. They become external factors that constrain and coerce us. If, on the other hand, we identify not with particular dissociated ideas but with consciousness itself – with that whose excitations give rise to all thoughts and feelings – we attain unfathomable metaphysical free will. This arises not from the power of the ego to control the world, but from the realization that we are the world.

Bernardo Kastrup

20250206

wit
wise
wizard

(same root)
For Heaven's sake keep your wits about you
ROOTING

A plant
extends down

into Earth
only to

gain the
support and

nourishment to
reach upwards.
When we think to ourselves we effectively stop the world by stepping off the wave of time which we rightly surf.
an egg
coddled

over a
candle

20250205

The Imagination is everything. Also Awareness is everything. How can they both be everything? Because they are the same. Awareness & Imagination amount to the same thing.
life
liege
lord
love

(same root)
unfinished & untitled – provisional
The word religion comes from the Latin religare to bind. So for me a religious person is someone who has bound up every part of life in their belief; someone who has effectively learnt to pray unceasingly; someone for whom life is, in a very real sense, all prayer.
Knowledge is the death of spirit.
Science deals in certainties; poetry in ambiguities.
being
belief
be life

20250204

The following realization rivals in its significance a religion: that once the background melody has been discovered one is no longer baffled in one’s speech and obscure in one’s decisions. There is a carefree security in the simple conviction that one is part of a melody, which means that one legitimately occupies a specific space and has a specific duty toward a vast work where the least counts as much as the greatest. Not to be extraneous is the first condition for an individual to consciously and quietly come into his own.

—Rainer Maria Rilke
Dantian is our Centre of Gravity about which we cohere.
Heart is our Centre of Levity from which we pour forth.
Meditation: presenting (gifting) the fulness of your being

Fear & worry hold you back

20250203

Dantian is where the descending aorta branches into the femoral arteries.

Sacrum in where the spine branches into the legs.
Awareness and Imagination amount to the same thing.

20250202

When with a teacher worth their salt, just listen. What they tell you is neither hearsay nor opinion. It is something they have either discovered for themselves or verified for themselves through hundreds of hours of practice. To either bolster or counter what they say with your opinion is both disrespectful and denigrating.
Between belief & suspicion : both critical & trusting.

20250201

The Imagination is the golden pathway to everywhere.

—Terence McKenna
Most of what passes for change is merely rearranging the furniture. Real change is next to impossible, and only becomes possible with the injection of grace. Our job is to work with the change so that we don't revert to old ways.
Mind with the movement so the movement can change the mind.
L I F E C O M E S I N F L A S H E S

20250131

When Carl Jung was asked if he believed in God he famously replied: I don't believe, I know. He could say this because he had done the work.
Humility comes when it dawns that grace is necessary to make any real headway.
Give me a savage mind any day

20250130

Ego is the proverbial big fish in a small pond. It's main activity is reducing the pond to enlarge itself.
I still take GOD IS LOVE to be the most radical utterance. Not because it illuminates God but because it tells me what Love is.
God is the aether, the aethereal
Mind in Dantian is a natural state if we remain ever hungry. Never eat to fulness. In Yoga they recommend always at least 25% empty.
m=E/c²
(matter is frozen light)
Meditation keeps the home fires burning
The best teacher lodges an intent not in the mind but in the heart.

—Anne Michaels, Fugitive Pieces, 1996

20250129

To learn anything worth learning we need passion & discipline.

20250128

If we don't embody the teaching then we don't have it.

20250127

Anything worth learning always presents difficulties only surmountable by change.

20250126

Real style is not having a program – it's how one behaves in a crisis.

—Frank Auerbach

20250125

Bring the mind to bear and a solution will present itself. Eventually. This is concentration and this is thinking. Good thinking.

20250124

Central equilibrium
A delicate poise
Hovering at the Point of Failure

20250123

Everything is psychosomatic

20250122

That for which we find words is something already dead in our hearts. There is always a kind of contempt in the act of speaking. 

—Nietzsche, The Twilight of the Idols

20250121

Nowadays we are all control freaks. We only allow into our lives what we can control. But spirit is not controllable so is banished, and ends up working against us. How does this manifest? The diseases of the burgeoning bourgeoisie: anxiety, depression, autoimmune disease, cancer.
I usually wake in the morning at the first signs of light. Even when the slats are closed the light is felt. So I rise, sit on my cushion facing East, and meditate to the sun rising over the distant hills. A perfect way to start the day. Real communication is always heart to heart.
There are points in the body where two or more threads of energy tie together. These points need a presence of mind to keep the threads connected otherwise they tend to separate and then we leak energy and weaken.
Crown
Third Eye
Tongue / Palate
Throat
Thymus
Lower heart
Solar plexus
Dantian
Perineum
Heels / Ground
Big toes / Ground
Touching thumb tips when meditating

20250120

Each time we practice we remind ourselves.
Maybe unmind would be a better word.

20250119

Practise as though your life depends upon it. 
Actually it doesn't but really it does.
The Daoist mind equilibrates rather than chooses.

20250117

Mind in the head is agitated
Mind in the dantian is still
How on Earth do we focus the mind on the task at hand, except fleetingly? This is the problem that plagues every student that has ventured a tap of work. And the answer is simple enough: through the heart. It is not the mind that focuses the mind but the heart. The key to staying undistracted is a loving heart.
The only way the work will get done is if you fall in love with it.
L I V E D A N G E R O U S L Y
Float with me in the world of ether.
David Lynch

Makes a good mantra.

20250116

At primary school, in our maths class, we were introduced to the concept of Infinity. I remember the teacher explaining to us that Infinity is an abstract concept invented by mathematicians, and it doesn't exist in the real concrete world where everything is finite. Spiritual work reveals that the opposite is in fact the case. Every natural thing is infinite — there being no end to its unfolding detail — and the finite is very much a man-made condition of his fabricated, unnatural world.
Learn to keep secrets.
In the interests of spirit, make a point of breaking the law at least once a day.

20250115

Adulthood is the abdication of ecstasy.
Simon Critchley

20250114

Make a list of habits in the day that cannot be avoided:
Arising
Toilet
Showering
Dressing
Practice
Breakfast (making & eating)
Washing-up
Driving to work
Etc etc

Then look at each one and try to find a way of doing it better: more relaxed, more aware/mindful, more in the legs.

This is bringing the practice (in)to life.

20250113

F U L L O F T H E J O Y S O F L I F E

20250112

Meditation: learning to bear the lightness of being

20250111

THE WAY IT IS

There's a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change. But it doesn't change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can't get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time's unfolding.
You don't ever let go of the thread.


William Stafford
Beginner's luck is a consequence of beginner's mind.
No experience; no expectation.
Only natural fibres next to the skin.
Cotton, linen, hemp, preferably.

20250110

G E T O F F Y O U R H E A D

20250109

The root is simply the spine driving down through the leg and into the ground.

20250108

The price to pay for the safety of the herd is a mind-numbing conformity.
If you wish to feel energy then you need to pay attention. Listen to the world worlding rather than the self selfing.

20250107

Middle-aged spread smacks of complacency.

20250106

Spirit excited but internally gathered

20250105

The only way to become whole & complete is to push into those areas you dare not venture.

20250104

Artificial Intelligence is an oxymoron

20250103

A drug is something that helps in the short-term but works against you in the long-term. Most of the time we spend drug-addled in some way or another.
Bourgeois = shallow rationalism + selfish materialism
the alchemy of living
LOVE HAS TANGENTS


Fidelity to patience
is the theme
I have kindled
behind every effort

The apogee
The same thing
A different way
Day after day

My love has tangents
not resolutions

Times have changed
Time has changed

Passing into one another
The surface of gestures
An amalgam
of deepening touch

Abandon ideology
Abandon self-loss
The wager is visible

There is no difference
Between the damned and the saved

Pardon
An inseparable face
Inside you


Pam Rehm